Raising Self Awareness

Do you ever feel like your world is falling apart?  Like maybe someone in the universe hates you?
Tonight, I did not have this experience.  However, my mood was shattered by some stressed-out, overtired overreactions.  So for now I'm camping out in my bedroom with music in my ears.  I think a part of me is scared to venture out into the rest of my house with my family; what was their reaction to my minor meltdown?  Luckily, after another thirty minutes or an hour I'll feel better and be able to see what they're all up to.  Which by that time will probably be sleeping.

On another note, I feel kind of guilty for not posting anything here...ever.  I've had several ideas for blogs, but turns out I was just too lazy to expand on the two or three sentences I had in my mind.  I promise my hypothetical readers, I will sincerely try to do better.

And another thing, how am I supposed to make my life productive this summer?  I currently have no car, no job, and an amazing ability to procrastinate.  Maybe I should work on the job part...but I don't quite know how to go about that.  I guess I'll figure something out sooner or later.  Although sooner would be better than later.

xxx
L