Sunshine and Daisies

People always like to say things like "Seize the day!" and "Control your own fate!" and "Live in the moment", or "Live like today is your last".

I'm having some trouble with that right now.  Mostly because I feel like I"m on house arrest.  I don't leave my house, this isn't by choice.  I"m not agoraphobic, I just have a lack of transportation and no friends who live nearby.  The closest friend is about 45 minutes away, but she has a life, not to mention she's moving in a couple of weeks.
It would appear that I will have no opportunity to change my current path until roughly August.  It could be more like mid-July, but I doubt it somehow.  Because even though I'll have more transportation, as aforementioned all my friends will be gone.  Okay, I really don't want to think about this anymore.

So I have a new topic:
Why do I always end up writing when I'm in a hopeless mood?  Or angry.  Either way, its almost always a negative emotion.  I don't like it, it's frustrating and tiring and I don't like being sad or angry or unhappy.  It makes me feel alone and stuck.  Like there's no end in sight, I won't be getting out of this mood because whats the point?  I don't care how hot it is, tomorrow I'm going for a bike ride.
One day, I swear, I am going to live within walking distance of a beach.  It's always there. It's pretty, even when it's gray.  There's typically some good people watching.  Nobody bothers you.  You can walk around or just sit or lay in the sand.  I'm comfortable when I'm at the beach.  Never mind the sunburns and sand in your book, I'm willing to deal with those things.